For weeks, I’ve intended to:
visit a loved one,
sit with a dear brother,
put in quality family time,
write that note,
make that call,
share that word.
Why haven’t I?
Because I’m occupied with what I have to do to make the money to keep what I’ve got.
And, I’m preoccupied with what I have to do to get more.
“what I have to do…”
I’ve been in bondage.
The world says I can attain the good life if I somehow manage to get the right combination of things. But, Jesus teaches that the things that make for my peace are in knowing the Father and following Him, forsaking all else.
I know the truth, but at some point I again embraced the lie.
This deception offered me fool’s gold, robbing me of what matters most: precious time loving people who are dear to me and dear to God, in exchange for the worthless: a nirvana I might experience some day if I manage to get and do all the right things. (Spoiler alert: It’s a lie. Fulfillment never happens this way.)
Working for more stuff and living more life are in opposite directions. And, I’ve been going the wrong way!
My focus should not be on how to keep what I have or how to get more. My heart should be set upon attending to my Father’s house rather than seeking my own interests and pleasure. When I have the same heart as the Father (as demonstrated by Jesus, His only begotten Son), then my pleasure comes from seeing His house provided for and prospering.
So, I pray “Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right spirit with in me!”.
I’m on a journey now
to lay aside that which ensares me,
to divest myself of what weighs me down,
to sell what I have to share with those who lack,
to live with less so I have more to give:
to follow Jesus.