I recently got hit with something so hard that it made me question the nature of reality itself.
It caused me to question everything I believed was real, including God.
I cannot test spiritual things the same way I test physical things (scientifically) because I cannot control (harness, measure, manipulate, evoke, etc.) spiritual things in any way. (I find the true state of reality to be that I am not in control but am subject to powers that are.)
I can only observe where the spiritual current takes us.
“These things we also speak, not in words which man’s wisdom teaches but which the Holy Spirit teaches, comparing spiritual things with spiritual.”
— 1 Corinthians 2:13
In the same way, my computer code cannot control (harness, measure, manipulate, evoke, etc.) anything I do not give it the ability and parameters for. The only way my code would know anything about my world is what I tell it or to the extent of the ability I give it to interact with my world.
The only way I know of spiritual things is what the Creator tells me.
“The secret things belong to the LORD our God, but those things which are revealed belong to us and to our children forever, that we may do all the words of this law.”
— Deuteronomy 29:29
God has revealed that we were abiding in death and that He sent Jesus to save us,
“Most assuredly, I say to you, he who hears My word and believes in Him who sent Me has everlasting life, and shall not come into judgment, but has passed from death into life.”
— John 5:24
I claim that Jesus saved me out of the disastrous spiritual current that leads to death and put me on the path that leads to life.
How can I know that’s real? How can I test that?
I can observe where the spiritual current takes me.
Jesus claims to heal as an aspect of this salvation and The Way that leads to Life.
So, for me healing is one of many tests.
Have I been healed? Am I being healed? Or, am I just coping? Are my beliefs merely a coping mechanism?
A key distinction between managing symptoms and true healing is the restoral or establishment of healthy function. Has the ability that existed or would have existed prior to the disease or injury been restored?
I can say unequivocally: yes. I have been healed.
In the past, I had been mortally wounded spiritually, emotionally, psychologically to the extent there was real physiological damage.
My injury rendered me unable to relate to people, especially certain people, in a healthy way that led to our collective growth and improvement.
I was closed up and cut off, with severely diminished capacity to enjoy Life, as a result of the pain and, at times, a conscious decision in an attempt to protect myself.
“God who commanded light to shine out of darkness, who has shone in our hearts to give the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ.”
— 2 Corinthians 4:6
now, I am wide open.
I do not have the resentment and bitterness that was keeping me secluded, that was killing me and that was keeping me from enjoying Life.
Do I still struggle?
But, the operation is complete.
“Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new.”
— 2 Corinthians 5:17
Notwithstanding, I’m in therapy to lift the dead layers of flesh, to work out the stiffness and atrophy sin causes, and to get full range of motion (sanctification).
This is where I observe the spiritual current of living water in Jesus Christ takes me: I have inextinguishable (eternal) Life that I didn’t have before that allows me to relate to others in a healthier way.
I may struggle with therapy —the sanctification process, but my healing is real.
“These things I have written to you who believe in the name of the Son of God, that you may know that you have eternal life, and that you may continue to believe in the name of the Son of God.”
— 1 John 5:13